Guided vs not-guided, for a beginner, Guided vs not-guided, for a beginner Beállítások

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I'm brand new to Buddhism and to meditation. I struggle enormously in general with bad memories and anger about them. (I have a good counselor.) I would like to ask opinions on guided vs non-guided (is that the correct term?) for a beginner. If I listen to a guided meditation, I think about what the teacher is saying, and that mostly keeps thoughts and anger at bay. However, if I need to learn to just be in the moment, and practice observing thoughts and letting them go, it seems as if I'm not learning that in a guided meditation. So - may I ask for folks' opinions and experiences?