06. Hate Myself (Love You)

Sometimes I am so blind

Sometimes I do things which are bad

Sometimes I wish to leave behind

Myself for the evil in me I've always had

Sometimes I act like a fool

Sometimes I'm greedy and selfish

Sometimes my heart is iced and cool

And like a shark I eat you little fish

My fire is burning always for you

But I hate myself while I love you

I hate myself

Sometimes I make myself

Cold and sorrowful

When I'm the tool of the evil dwelling inside

I hate it when I'm like this

Tortured by the frozen kiss

Of selfish, greedy, heartless, reckless demons inside me

You can hate me now

(But I'll always love you)

Sometimes I tear apart myself

When darkness surrounds my pure burning love

Sometimes I'm thinking only of myself

While you are the one who I want to rise above

Sometimes I might exploit you

But you have to forgive me that

As if I do that I'm not the one

Who I'm deep inside, who you wish to get

My heart is open always for you

But I hate myself while I love you

Greedy and selfish and heartless and reckless

That's me – I am the dirty darkness

I cause pain while I gain serenity

I make you bleed while you are the one who feeds my soul

Could you forgive me sometimes who I am?

Could you forget the cases when I act in an evil way?

Could you still love me if I am like this

Or would you grow hatred inside and let me fall out of your caress?