09. Deeper

This time we will descend much deeper in my soul

Where there is no light just the alluring call

Of my dreams, of my fears and my memories

Dead love stories of yesterday

If you can find a way to the core

Deeper and deeper in my soul

Deeper and deeper

Once I had an angel who was never mine

She touched my bleeding heart, closed it in her entwine

Then she dropped it into the depths of the ocean

And I had to follow it into pitch black desperation

I descended into the endless darkness

Just following the trace of my blood and tears

And when I reached the bottom of nothingness

I lost the way back and remained there forever

I felt I was betrayed

As noone dropped me a rope

I lost all my hope

And I felt the cold waves of the coming storm

Deeper and deeper

Descend in my soul, follow my call

And when you find me

Please don't leave me, save me

From the sorrow, from the darkness

From the surrounding nothingness

Be my savior, the angel of my dreams

Caress me and silence my screams

Once I asked a question while I knew the answer

But I didn't realize that time that I'll burn for you almost forever

I was sinking in the lake of my own tears

But even when I died I didn't give up my beliefs

The cold tears slowly froze the fire

My soul was purified from any sinner desire

But you were still the one, the only one

Deep inside, from the truth you cannot run

I felt this is the end

As you sent me away

Said things I'd never say

And I felt the cold wind of the darkest winter

Later on a night in the nature's hands

I was sitting hollow inside, without any demands

And on this night the angel of darkness

Visited me, and picked me from my sadness

She let me see the gate to the mortal world

Silenced my screams she's never heard

And together on that single hazy night

She caressed me and we took a little flight

I felt the might

As you didn't deny

To let me try

And I felt the fire of the ancient desire

Do you feel it's your destiny

To refuse living eternally

To live for pleasures of mortals

And let your innocent soul fall

Would you choose

An angel of carnal delight

On which way would you

Wander toward that dreamt height

Do you still think I'm so shallow?

Do you think I'm not someone to follow?

Do you think I missed my path?

Do you think I deserved my tearbath?

If you say yes, you're right. You shouldn't follow me. This path I walk always leads deeper and deeper… toward a dead end.

And now you are here for me, showing me the bright side

Of the life, wounds once opened wide

Are closed by your loving heart and soul

You hold me tight and we will never fall

All the illusions around us were all fake dolls

As we look at them in our caress their claymask falls

I am happy on the surface and happy in the core

You, my love, gave and give me everything I'm longing for

I felt your breath

Your love, your caress

As you asked me to come

And I gladly walk the path of love with you

Just you